「悲しみ…
たとえ僅かな光生まれても　嘆きは繰り返す
それはまるで嘘のように　消える真実
たとえ最後の羽を開いても　運命(さだめ)は変えられず
百合の花は儚げに　痛みは消えない
夢なら愛したままで

悲しみ…
たとえどんな終わりを描いても　心は謎めいて
それはまるで闇のように　迫る真実
たとえどんな世界を描いても　明日は見えなくて
それはまるで百合のように　汚れを知らない
願いは透明なままで」

嵐　「ｔｒuth」

Since I've been watching more dramas again lately, I thought I'd make this post about dramas I have seen so far and whether I liked them or not. Feel free to comment!

While the first dramas I watched were Hana Yori Dango and Nodame Cantabile and I still love those, I have since moved away from manga adaptations to more realistic dramas. Dramas I'm interested in can basically be divided into two major groups:

Romantic comedy: I like the ones with a kind of moral or social problems aspect, like Ohitorisama and Kimi wa petto, which deal with successful, but unmarried women and their problems, or Buzzer Beat and Zenkai Girl, which make you think about what is more important, love or your dream. Special points if the characters don't act like spoilt brats and misunderstand every harmless situation for the sake of the plot (or to distract from the lack of plot.)

Detective drama/ mystery: Can be one huge mystery solved over the course of the show, or an episodic drama, as long as their is some continuous story line, e.g. relationships between the characters or something from a protagonist's past. Nice if it involves a bit of romance, but no necessity. While I like dramas like Bloody Monday once in a while, for this category I am mostly thinking of dramas like Mr. Brain or Maou.

I am also trying to watch more dramas based on their plot (summary) than by who's in them, although sometimes I do watch a show just for an actor I like.

(For your reference, my favourite US shows are the now ended Gilmore Girls, medical drama Grey's Anatomy and Glee (which is sadly going downhills). I swear the starting with a g thing is a total coincidence! As for sitcoms, I really liked Friends and The Nanny. Also, I love, love, love the BBC series Sherlock. Of course, that's not all I've ever watched, but I thought I'd only list my all-time favourites. Other shows I'm watching include long-runner Desperate Housewives and the rather new Revenge. I've also seen many episodes of Everwood and Pushing Daisies, and all but the last season of Charmed. Buffy is still on my to-watch-list, though. Shows I tried and didn't like enough to continue watching were The O.C., Gossip Girl, How I Met Your Mother, Scrubs... They're okay, I guess, but not quite my cup of tea. If anyone knows a good Gilmore Girls replacement, though, please let me know! I guess I'd also enjoy watching a good crime/mystery show if I could choose one from the bazillions out there!)


In alphabetical order, marking recommended dramas in italics:

33pun Tantei: Episodic detective drama playing with the genre cliches. Fun for a while, but gets annoying quickly.

Akai Ito: A bunch of teens with too many problems to be realistic, yet somewhat heartwrenching.

Binbou Danshi: Oguri Shun is too nice for his own good. Makes me irritated after a while.

Bloody Monday: (Still haven't seen season 2. >.<) So exciting I watched the whole thing in one night.

Buzzer Beat: Great characters (even the minor ones), good plot, absolutely recommended. YamaPi <3

Code Blue: (Haven't seen season 2 yet.) The whole cutting people thing isn't my cup of tea, but nice human drama and again, YamaPi <3

Gokusen: Watched it because of MatsuJun, who was good. Story of Yankumi saving students got old pretty quick, though.

Hanazakari no kimitachi e: Fun to watch, but nothing to write about home about. (I did like Nanba-senpai, though. xD)

Hana Yori Dango: My first drama love, although I now see several flaws (hello. season 2!) Still, a classic.

Juui Dolittle: Oguri Shun as a grumpy vet, Inoue Maou as his assistant, and cute animals and some serious questions to us humans.

Kimi wa petto: Already listed above. Who doesn't want that kind of pet? *smirk*

Kindaichi Shounen no Jikenbo 3: Apart from the fact that I can't seem to find this without absolutely crappy hardsubs, I mostly liked it.

Kudou Shin'ichi e no chousenjou: Doesn't feel quite right for me as a Detective Conan fan.

Last Friends: Looked promising at first, but the main girl grew on my nerves and the end was such a joke.

Love Shuffle: 4 guys and 4 girls get coupled randomly for a week each while coping with their individual problems. Serious fun.

Maou: Arashi's Ohno-kun is a surprisingly good serial killer who meets a psychic girl. If only the police wouldn't act as stupid.

Mei-chan no Shitsuji: Annoying main girl chooses the wrong guy. It's not enough to look good if you lack personality.

Mr. Brain: KimuTaku as an eccentric detective solving cases with notable guest stars. Gackt eats his own fingers.

Nodame Cantabile: Apart from male senpai on girl violence, a fun and heartwarming drama with quirky characters and great music. Chiaki <3

Ohitorisama: Should have been subtitled "Julia's life in ten years". Veggie boy has the nicest smile ever. Highly recommended!

Otomen: I think I gave up before the end. Seemingly perfect and "manly" guy has a secret desire to knit. Oh my God.

Pride: KimuTaku plays substitute lover for OL's absent boyfriend. The rest you can guess. (Not as bland as it sounds, though.)

Rebound: Apart from unrealistically fast weight loss and gain, nice drama addressing several problems at once. Funny male rival.

Samurai High School: Miura Haruma gets possessed by a samurai spirit at the most inconvenient times. Yawn.

Shikaotoko Awoniyoshi: Anti-hero has to save the world - at least a talking deer says so. Japanese history for the lazy.

Sora kara furu ichioku no hoshi: Dark and mysterious. When will girls learn to stay away from bad boys?

Stand up!: Or why it's hard on four guys if all they can do is stand and watch... Bad joke.

Sunao ni narenakute: Similar to Last Friends (same actors O.o), good ideas wasted.

Tokyo Dogs: Will two cops save a girl, and who will win her heart? Mizushima Hiro has facial hair. >.< Thankfully, Oguri Shun doesn't. 

Uta no Onii-san: Ohno-kun lands the wrong job and has to start liking it. Crazy people. Not recommended for Japanese studying.

Voice: Listen to what the dead people are saying. A bit slow and a bit lacking in the character department, but solid.

Watashi ga ren'ai dekinai riyuu: Why can't I, indeed? Surprisingly realistic look on love nowadays.

Yasuko to Kenji: Over the top and a tad repetitive, but great fun.

Yoiko no Mikata: Kids are cute. Arashi's Sakurai-kun is cute (he cries in every episode). Addresses child raising issues in modern Japan.

Yuukan Club: Bunch of high school kids is bored with their rich and sheltered life and get involved into cases. If that isn't boring.

Zenkai Girl: She's never had it, now she wants it: Money. But what about the poor, but cute ikumen and her ideal of a good lawyer?

Zettai Kareshi: Never in her life had she imagined she'd be torn between her hot junior boss and a ... robot?! Be careful what you wish for.

* No italics doesn't mean I don't recommend the drama, but the italics are my favourites and should be safe for most tastes to watch. Some dramas were nice (if you like the genre), but didn't thrill me. Should I mark the "definitely not recommended"s? I don't want to offend anyone who does like those, though.

Shall I list the movies, too?

決めたの。今の自分が好き。
久々に日本人学校に伺ってみんなすごく喜んでくれたし、明日ドイツ語の授業をするって言ったら生徒たちが「やった！」って騒いだ。笑　休み時間もずっと中学年の女の子たちと外で遊んだ。やっぱり先生っていい仕事だなぁ。
モリーが死んでから初めてまた幸せを感じた。この気持ちを大切にしたい。
笑ってる自分が好き。前も気づいたけど、必要とされて、愛されて…輝いてる子供たちと一緒にいて、自分まで輝いて見えるの。
キラキラしてる自分が好き。
辛いこともあったけど、落ち込んではいけない。落ち込んでもどうにもならないんだから。人生は短いもの。

1) Who is your favorite character? Why?
Tough one. My favourites changed over the seasons, but if I have to decide now, mid season 3, I'd probably say Kurt. He's just as talented as Rachel, but less annoying now that he's happy with Blaine, and he does say things you can't deny are true. ("I don't want to believe in a God that first makes me gay and then sends his followers after me for it.")
As for the girls, I went from Rachel to Quinn, but now I find both annoying. ^^;

2) Who is your least favorite character? Why?
... Changes quite a bit. I used to hate Santana, but since the start of season 3, I've actually started liking her when she doesn't have one of her bitchy moments.
I don't think I really hate any characters as much as I hate what the writers do to them.

3) What is your favorite pairing?
Klaine. Blurt. KurtCoBlaine. Whatever you want to call it.

4) What is your least favorite pairing?
Finchel when they monopolize the storyline with their dramas. And their stupid wedding sucks. You're 18, please go out and see the world and be alone for a while! Although I don't really have any pairings I hate - it did, however, annoy me how the writers broke up Tina and Artie to pair Tina up with Mike just because they're both Asian. I like Tina with Mike, but seriously?

5)Do you have a secret pairing that other people might not understand?
I am secretly rooting for Quinn and Artie to get together. Seems like that's not gonna happen now, though.

6) What is your favorite Glee song?
The Warbler's version of "Hey Soul Sister". It never fails to lift my mood. As for New Directions: "Don't Stop Believin'" - the one song everyone loves. Or "We Are Young". <3

7) What is your least favorite Glee song?
All those dance numbers with Britney on lead vocals, or the weird ones like Push It. There are many songs I wouldn't put on my iPod, though. (I do have the uber ridiculous "Run Joey Run" on my mp3-player though and I'm pretty sure people give me weird looks when I'm listening to it. xD)

8) What is your favorite Glee performance?
The Warblers' Gap Attack. xD Any Warblers performance from the Blaine at Dalton time. <3

9) What is your least favorite Glee performance?
All the Tina solos that get interrupted by her crying? Or Mr. Schue's WTF spanish one.

10) What is your favorite Glee episode?
Dream On? There are so many great ones.

11) What is your least favorite Glee episode?
... I know several episodes sucked, and lately several had like zero plot, but I can't think of any I really do not like at all. Even the crappiest episodes usually had at least one good song or moment in them.

12) You’re the new kid at McKinley. Who are you most likely to become friends with?
Tina, Artie, Kurt.

13) You decide to audition for the Glee Club. What song do you sing?
My Immortal? I guess I'll have to give that some more thought.

14) Most of the Gleeks are doubling up. What other extracurricular activity are you involved in?
Do they have a creative writing workshop?

15) Jacob Ben Israel has written a scathing review of your performance on his online blog! What do you do?
Ask my mother if that is what she had in mind when she asked why I can't find a nice Jewish guy. Oh wait, I could just show her Puck. Or maybe I could get Puck to deal with Jacob. :D

16) Sue Sylvester has dragged you by your ear to Principal Figgins’ office. Why?
I was walking down the hall listening to my iPod and made goofy faces (see above) which she interpreted as directed towards her.

17) April Rhodes has returned to McKinley! What terrible lesson does she teach you?
Guys don't like smart girls, so just play dumb!

18) Mr. Schuester is struggling to think of songs for the Glee Club to perform. What do you suggest to him?
I'll Be There For You by The Rembrandts! XD I mean, after all, Rachel claims she's got her name from Friends.

19) Sue Sylvester has chosen you to be one of “Sue’s Kids”. What derogatory name does she call you by?
Sun Allergic? Ghosty? (Kurt already is Porcelain. xD)

20) You eat some bad Chinese food before you go to bed and have a Glee related nightmare. What happens in it?
I have to sing a solo that Mr. Schuester didn't give to Rachel due to her attitude, but totally fail at it, for which the other kids (the other glee kids!) slushie me.

21) After a few months of being in the Glee Club, you form a crush on a certain someone. Who is this someone?
Artie, I guess. Let's just hope I won't fall for Blaine. >_______< (I mean, Darren Criss!!)

22) It’s been 20 years since the Glee kids have graduated. What is (the character of your choice) doing?
Kurt is running his own broadway theatre where he casts new (unusual) talents for shows based on his own life. Oh, and he's married to Blaine, of course. Yes, Klaine made gay marriage legal.

23) Mr. Schuester gives the Glee kids the task of another mash-up. What two songs do you use?
New Direction's girls with The Trouble With Boys and the guys with The trouble with girls by Scotty McCreery, which I don't know but just came across online and thought it would fit. xD

24) You think that’s hard? Try ______________________, that’s hard!
smiling while hitting those high notes

25) You catch Sue Sylvester trying to sabotage the Glee Club. What is she doing?
Putting glue on the chairs in the practice room? Exchanging their hairspray bottles with spray colour?

26) Let’s end this little meme with a GIF of your choice!
Sorry, I was torn between these two. xD

Some of you may have seen it on Facebook, but for those who haven't: My cat is really, really sick.
(Livejournal won't let me post a photo of her. >__<)

Let me relate the whole story to you:
On Saturday morning, she was still acting as usual, coming to my room door in the morning and meowing for me to come out and pet her. Then, she stopped eating and just lied around the house or garden apathetically. When that continued the next day, we packed her up and took her to the vet. She was so apathetic she didn't even complain about the car ride, which she usually does. (She hates cars.) The vet X-rayed her and took a blood sample, and it turned out her liver is way too large and it doesn't really look good for her. (There's also a lot of water in her tummy and something that looks like a tumor next to her heart.) He gave her an injection and we took her home, where I slept - or just lied - on the couch in the living room that night to keep an eye on her. That night, I was pretty much crying my heart out, because not only has Molli been there since I was seven (I still remember the night one of her neighbours came over with three newborn kittens, just a day old, and I picked the little brown-and-black-and-beige one and named her Molli. And now I'm starting to cry again. ;____;) The next day (Monday), she wasn't really doing any better, although she did purr a little in the morning when I petted her and tried to make her drink some water, so I was really prepared for the vet to say that we should put her to sleep right. I don't want her to suffer, of couse, but I've always imagined her just falling asleep for eternity at home or in the garden some day waaaaaaaay in the future. She was always so energetic we'd really thought she would live forever, or at least make it up to 20 or 25, so this was a huge blow to me. I even took her on my lap, sat in the garden and told her it was okay to let go,  we would be sad but make it without her, and I'd meet her again in Heaven some day. (NOW I'm crying, btw.) But then the vet told us she was getting better and we'd have to feed her special food and see him again two days later.
So we did, and we also fed her some egg yellow and quark which she seemed to like, although I had to spoon-feed it all to her, because she still won't eat anything on her own. She drinks from the pond, though. The vet was actually surprised by how much better she was doing on Wednesday, and so was I, as she kept punching me with her paw from inside the transportation box.
But then we went again today, and the other vet there said that it's not "just" the liver, but that it looks like FIP to him, and if she doesn't start eating again soon, we will have to... end it. ;______; I had thought we could make this right again, that she was getting better! I had even sworn to myself not to go to Japan for my M.A. and stay with her as long as she lives.
I looked up FIP the minute we got home and I had Molli settled in the kitchen, and this is what it says on wikipedia: "Feline infectious peritonitis (FIP) is a fatal incurable disease that affects cats." So it's certain that she isn't going to be with us for any longer, the question is just when and how it will happen. I am still really hoping that she can just leave peacefully on a sunny afternoon, at home, in the garden, you know? ;_________; I don't want to take her to the vet, which she hates, and have it "done" in some cold sterile place. Plus, I want her to decide when she goes, so as long as she's not in any severe pain, I really hope we can just let her die when her time comes. I guess that's all I can wish for now, right? ;;;_____________;;;

I can't believe she won't be there anymore. It's been almost sixteen years, and she's always been there. I also can't believe I forgot her birthday last year and didn't get her anything, and now I probably won't get the chance to make that right.
I don't even know what to do because she seems like she wants to be left alone, but I really wanna be there for her, and of course I really wanna be with her, too, knowing I won't have many chances anymore.
What if she doesn't start eating again soon? Then we'll have to...
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Btw, Chandler's reaction is: "That's it, it's over. I want you out now." Take that, Bella Swan.

Still need to post a rant entry about my job search for after I graduate, and about some recent events at school (yeah), but I had such a pleasant surprise today which I thought I'd share with you all. <3

... you have to read this. Especially if all those "everyone in HP is gaaaaaaaaaaay!!111!"-fangirls annoy you.

Seriously, what's with all the "write about your..." tasks? Like now, I have to write about my expectations for this year. Um, I don't have any? I mean, I could write about what I want to do, but the chances I'll actually get to do that are slim, and I don't want to be ridiculed or pitied for having dreams that don't come true.

Seriously, why do so many people in the Harry Potter fandom make a complete player out of Sirius Black? In alsmost every marauder fanfic on Pottersues, he has a ton of girlfriends, but never goes steady, and cheats on all of them.
Was this EVER mentioned in the books? I don't think so. This should have gone in J.K. Rowling's FAQ.