「悲しみ…
たとえ僅かな光生まれても　嘆きは繰り返す
それはまるで嘘のように　消える真実
たとえ最後の羽を開いても　運命(さだめ)は変えられず
百合の花は儚げに　痛みは消えない
夢なら愛したままで

悲しみ…
たとえどんな終わりを描いても　心は謎めいて
それはまるで闇のように　迫る真実
たとえどんな世界を描いても　明日は見えなくて
それはまるで百合のように　汚れを知らない
願いは透明なままで」

嵐　「ｔｒuth」

I will arrive at Narita, Tokyo on Setember 8th, around 8 a.m.

Make your own Countdown Clocks

Earlier today, my internet connection broke. Instead of helping me, my brother and mother said I was just too stupid. Of course, that makes perfect sense.
Computer: "Hey, my user is stupid. Must cut off internet connection." (If THAT worked, we wouldn't have so many hideous fanfics on the net. -___-)

And right now I wanted to eat a sausage, but my Mum said "No, don't eat sausages, and how dare you take things out of the fridge without asking?!!!!"
Okay, so now I have to ask before I want to eat anything??

I feel like a totally unloved child where all the parents do is wait until it moves out. Sorry I'm already 20 and living with my parents, but what am I supposed to do? I don't have the money to move out. ;__;

Damn, I'm still crying. I cried through half of the drama, and at the end it got so hard I couldn't see much of the screen anymore. Why do they have to do such things? Like the end of this or films like Henshin... ;____________;

WHY???

As Take-chan said, this drama really makes you think. And although I didn't understand all of it - like what is that MW thing?- it was enough. (My Japanese starts to impress me. O_o)
And Take-chan was awesome. You could really see his acting potential.

But whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?!?! ;;;______________;;;

EDIT: Over all the crying, I totally forgot to mention how deep and smooth Take-chan's voice sounded throughout the drama. <3

I came to like some LOCKS tracks more through the concert, so I translated them.
Kanji and romaji are taken from corichan.com.
Some translations are here: http://garnetseas.blogspot.com/2008/03/locks-lyrics-translation.html I found them to be a bit incorrect, though. Mine are probably not much better, so please compare them and judge for yourselves. :)

( もう一度 笑って  )


( この手を伸ばせば )

I'm thinking of translating some more, but they look quite difficult. ^^;

LOL Someone uploaded their latest PV to youtube, bur instead of "Doing all right", it was called "Doing all night". They're not SUCH a band, you pervert!

Inspired by the performance at their latest concert, I decided to translate 夢のひとつ.
As Yurippe said, it's a painful, fleeting song, but also shows some strength.

I have also finally created a Garnet Crow tag, so if you click on it, you should find the other translations. :)

Translated with kanji from: http://cherryblossom-garden.com/2/garnetcrow7.html#yume

Disclaimer: Do I really need to tell you again how horrible my Japanese and English are?

( A single dream )

I got my copy of their latest live DVD, "Are you ready to lock on?" today and it is pure love. (The title is a joke because it's the tour for their album LOCKS. xD)

Last time, in the Ninnaji DVD, which is pure love as well, they made the audience sing along to Sky Blue, and this time, they made them dance to Mr. Holiday. DANCE. Garnet Crow. I laughed so hard. xDDD

I'm happy that their newer concerts seem to be really good. The first were okay, the Twilight Valley DVD was... (the hideous holographic pajamas Yurippe was wearing >____<), but the last two DVDs are musical masterpieces. <3

I really cannot wait for their new single and their new album, which will be released on my first day in Japan. If that's not fate. <3

And I really, really, really want to go to one (at least one!) of their concerts while I'm in Japan. Their tenth anniversary falls into my visit as well.

Ah, good old Garnet Crow. <3
It's funny how I came to like some of the LOCKS tracks by watching them being performed on DVD. Yume no hitotsu is really, like Yurippe said, a painful, fleeting song, but it displays human strength.

Okay, I finished my presentation this morning, didn't have time to eat until after it (unfortunately, I didn't faint before class - too bad) and then had to rush through the whole thing because we were short on time. So my prof didn't have time to crush me either, but I somehow sense she will do it sometime.

So I ate a bit at the mensa afterwards, went to my last class (in "Zombie-mode", as ReversedJennifer put it xD) and then went home and straight to bed. I told my brother I wanted to sleep and he should play in silence (he has the habit of shouting into his microphone when he plays, things like "KILL HIM!!)
After like 5 minutes, just when I was dozing off, I heard him shout again. So in my zombie-mode, I went to the other room and switched off the internet connection. And then it comes:

"You ugly cunt, what are you doing?!?!?!" (Yes, Julie, obviously you can use the word "Fotze" for people. But it's really, really rude, especially if you're directing it at your OWN SISTER.)

Then my parents came upstairs, my brother was all like, "she was sooo mean", my dad lectured me, and now I'm so damn pissed I cannot sleep anymore. So I'm checking my mails and stuff and watching that Tom Hanks/Meg Ryan movie - not "Sleepless in Seattle", which would fit, but the other one.

This day is hell.
 

EDIT: I was wondering why my pages didn't load anymore, until I realised my bastard of brother had switched the internet off. He never switches the internet off when he goes to be - he's even too lazy to switch the light in the study off-, but now he did because he know I was still online. I can't wait for the day when I can finally move out. Really, although I actually like my parents most of the time, and also my brother - before he called me an ugly cunt-, but this is nothing I want to put up with for much longer. And the worst thing is, they still treat me like a child. They don't even let me FUCKING sleep when I need to! I mean, I even told my Mum I was damn tired and just wanted to sleep, but she still had to come to my dark room and ask if I want to eat something. Which leads me to her headdeskiest moment ever:
I was asleep at daytime, and I didn't let down the rollos because I was too tired or didn't mind the light.

My mum walks in, asks "Julia? Are you asleeeeeeep?!" and then proceeds to loudly let down the rollos, including the one above my bed which you can only reach when you step onto the bed, in which I was sleeping. When I woke up - who wouldn't??- and asked what the hell she was doing, she said:
"I didn't want you to get woken up by the light."
HELLO?!?! I got woken up by someone making noise in my room and trampling on my bed?!?!?!
Plus, she never realizes that when a room is dark, there's either no one there or that person is asleep. In either case, you should never ask "ARE YOU ASLEEEEEP?!", because you will either wake the sleeping person up or ask a question to an empty room. Logic... >____________________<

It's pouring here. So loud I can't hear the TV. Well, the TV screen has gone blank anyway...

As you might know, I've fallen in love with flumpool recently. So I decided to translate two of their songs today, to get an idea of what they're singing about.
I think I don't need to repeat the whole "my Japanese sucks, my English sucks as well, correct mistakes please" thing again?!

Kanji for translation taken from here: http://music.goo.ne.jp/lyric/artist.php?n=flumpool
No romaji today, if you need some, ask.

( 星に願いを (hoshi ni negai wo) )

( Over the rain 〜ひかりの橋〜 )

And now I really, really want to watch Bloody Monday. >____<
Damn course work. ;__;

Btw, Zettai Kareshi, anyone? xD
http://music.goo.ne.jp/lyric/LYRUTND71288/index.html

God, my Sato Takeru addiction is getting worse and worse. xD And still no time to watch Bloody Monday (now who would have guessed that. ^^;)
But I'm listening to the theme song by flumpool all day - got addicted to the band because they also sing the theme song for MW.  <3
Between that, it's Mr.Children. (I can blame all my current music addictions on Take-chan. xD)

Anyway, keiichirochan and I went to our old school's prom last night. We stayed there from around 11 pm until 1 am and then went to McDonald's to have a McFlurry (with Smarties). xD
It was nice meeting old people (well, I didn't have to meet those jerks from our class, but well...)
But I had to squeeze myself into my old prom dress. xD Must go on diet, must go on diet, diet, diet...

And now I'll go do some more work. Translation, presentation... Help!

You know the whole sermon, translation might not be correct, no native speaker,  bla bla.

Kanji taken from here: http://music.goo.ne.jp/lyric/LYRUTND70913/index.html

Happy Birthday, qnuy !!
I hope you'll have a great day and a great next year of your life!

I skipped Smile because it seemed way too painful for me. I skipped The Quiz Show for the same reason.
Mr. Brain also has painful moments, but those are okay. (Although I'm still crying over Masaru's memory loss. ;____________;)

The last book I read had a light start, but became darker and darker towards the end.
Same with Zettai Kareshi, where I finall watched the last part this weekend.

I still want to watch Bloody Monday, but I bet it will be painful as well. (I just hope they won't let Take-chan's character die.)
There's also Beautiful Life which I want to watch for my Japanese Communication class, but I already know someone's going to die in the end.

If I had time, I would spend a whole day watching comedies.

I mean, I don't mind deeper plots and so on, and I know the world is not the sparkly little one they portray in dramas like, hm, Hana Kimi. But BECAUSE I know that I want something to make me laugh for a while.

I was reading the last volume of Harry Potter. Until 8 in the morning. I pulled an all-nighter because I wanted to finish reading before the newspapers would spoil all the secrets. (Which they didn't, that time. O.o) And I just couldn't stop. Staying up the whole night and following one story is really intense. At some parts I was crying. ^^;

The next time I'll stay up all night is when I'm finally going to watch Bloody Monday!!! >___<

Finally Take-chan!!! (*___*)/

It's just so cool how he sits there and plays the piano with his hands all bloody. >_______________< (and now I am reminded again of the fact I STILL haven't watched Bloody Monday. ;__;)

C E A D ... I tried playing those notes as well, but I have no idea what they mean. ^^;
Okay, just what happened now when he played those notes??

LOL Tanbara-keiji. xD Looks like he starts to believe in Mr. Brain.

And LOL, Sasa-san. xD "You should not run in the corridors."

And a third LOL for Kazune-chan. I hope she didn't get them into even bigger trouble with that. ... She did. Poor thing.

Rinda-kun is afraid of bugs? xD

So it was the sister?!?

Rinda-kun, so passionate? <3

Argh, cliffhangers!!!
Okay, I'll just watch episode 5 and see what I get without subs. Ja ne!

I totally forgot to write a report on last episode. ^^;
Well, what is there to say? It had Gackt in it. xD (Who ate his own fingers. Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!)
Apart from the fact that I found it quite easy to deduce the murderer this time, I liked it.

And now to episode 3, the last one before Satou Takeru!!! He will be in episode 4 AND 5!!!!! Woohoo! \(^.^)/


Oh, before I forget it, episode 2 ended with Tsukumo-san alias Mr. Brain collapsing.
(And one more thing, I just realised I don't really have any dramas I want to watch in the upcoming summer season. And "western" shows like Grey's Anatomy go on a break. But that's actually good because I have only August to write my 10 pages term paper before I leave for Japan. And I hope I can FINALLY watch Bloody Monday! And catch up on Smile, maybe.)

Btw, Mr. Brain has really good ratings! Episode 3 only had 16% (still more than Smile ever had ^^;), but episode 4 is at 21% again. Because of Take-chan, I bet! <3

Argh, I just realised I have the japanese subs instead of the english ones, and the forum seems to be down at the moment! Damn! I need subs for this drama, I cannot possibly understand all this talk about brains! >____<
... Got the subs. Finally!

( and now to episode 3, finally )

Gaybo, they showed a preview for next episode with Take-chan as a pianist with memory loss! Playing the piano with bloody hands, claiming he has killed someone... (I really, really need to watch Bloody Monday!!!)

Sundays are nothing but extended hell. You had a nice weekend, maybe went out Saturday night, but now all you can do is hang around waiting for Monday to come.

As for me, I never know how to occupy myself on Sundays. I usually feel dizzy from the big contrast of Fridays and Sundays, where I stay up late and do things I want to, as opposed to the rest of the week.
I can read or play games, that's fine. I can watch some TV, also okay. I cannot watch dramas because I need to concentrate and I also prefer to watch them in the evening when it's dark outside and nobody disturbs me.
I can also not write well. I have problems sitting in front of the computer, and my head feels in the clouds anyway.

What a waste of such a perfect day off.

This song is sooo sad! ;_____;

Romanized from here: http://music.goo.ne.jp/lyric/LYRUTND77648/index.html

Please correct my mistakes if you spot any, thank you. (You know the procedure, don't you? )

( I still love you... )

She was featured on engrish.com. ^^;

http://www.engrish.com/2008/01/do-you-still-love-me/

Yes, "Why?" indeed.


Oh, and Julie, here's your favourite Engrish word:

http://www.engrish.com/category/music/page/2/

Have a nice fright, Frankie! XD

http://www.titane.ca/concordia/dfar251/igod/main.html

The best part so far was when he said he was an A.I. I knew it!!!

... But who created God, I wonder?

I sooo wish I could save that whole conversation somewhere. It's just super hilarious. xD
(I am now desperately trying to get my soulmate's phone number from God. xD)